The Loneliness of Heartbreak (Nothing Compares 2U) Most of us have had our hearts torn to pieces by love. It can be a very wounding experience and very damaging, the damage can stay with us forever. The sun never shines. When my first marriage broke down, the loneliness I felt was crippling. Looking back, I knew I was already depressed, but the ending of my relationship just pushed me deeper into myself. I have always been a person who like his own company. Don't get me wrong, I'll have a laugh and a crack with anyone who wants to. But given the choice between going out for a meal with lots of friends, or spending the day on my own with a mad spaniel, then the spaniel wins - more times than not. However the despair and loneliness I felt after my break up was beyond anything I had ever felt before or since. Like the song below. The utter devastation in your life makes you think nothing compares to the loss. You'll do anything to win the person back. Anything! Even change yourself. Fun becomes a concept that is for other people and you start to distance yourself. It was during this time that I re-discovered God, or as my best friend once put it better, "Maybe God decided to come find you" Its hard to admit, because, you feel so helpless and desperate. You want to blame others and in times of extreme pain, maybe kick out and blame God! I know I did. The thing is, that God never puts us through things we can't handle. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger, they say. In any struggle in life, regardless of how much I want to blame God, I think, I feel, I trust he is on my side and whatever trials I go through he is there for support. Look at the story of Job! A wealthy Man, A happy man, a righteous man, and the Devil decides he can turn him away from God. Throughout all of his struggles, Job never loses faith. Through the loneliness, the loss, the heartbreak, Job knows he will be rewarded and he will dance again. "As long as there is breath in me, and the spirit of God is in my nostrils, my lips will not speak falsehood, and my tongue will utter no deceit" Job 27 3-4 [ESV] Steve Fogo |