What now, what next, where to?
I do not understand why the Lord led me to a work situation that made me feel so ill and inadequate, questioning my own abilities, but I do not see the bigger picture. I handed in my notice after 6 weeks - totally out of character for me - my shortest period of employment being 3 years and my norm being 8 - 10 years.
Often when we are having difficulties we feel we are under attack, but I believe we give the enemy far too much credit! It’s more likely that the Lord wants to do work within us. We all have a spiritual dimension to our nature which is ‘below the waterline’ of our consciousness (like Joshua’s 12 rocks) and can stand in the way of our discipleship journey. As we allow the Lord to identify each area of sin and disorder in our lives/spirit (often unknown to us consciously) we grow into greater wholeness.
Like the Levite priests preparing to carry the Ark across the Jordan, it should be our life work to become more sanctified – the inevitable consequence is to flourish in the Fruits of the Spirit, “But the Spirit produces love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, humility, and self-control. There is no law against such things as these”. Galatians 5:22-23 [GNT].
The Lord (and my husband) told me not to seek another job until after Christmas. The downsized home the Lord provided for us in April (via some wonderful friends in Christ) has enabled me to take this sabbatical – God saw this season coming! It is ‘playtime’ with my heavenly father and the different reactions I’ve received have been interesting, including my own.
In this season amazing things, both spiritually and physically, have taken place which would have been impossible before. In many areas there has been incredible redemption as the Lord has delved below the waterline. As we each stand at the edge of our own river Jordan, how deep will we go with the Lord?
“May God, our very own God, continue to be with us just as he was with our ancestors - may he never give up and walk out on us. May he keep us centered and devoted to him, following the life path he has cleared, watching the signposts, walking at the pace and rhythms he laid down for our ancestors”. 1 Kings 8:56-58 [The Message]
I know the Lord still has an ACE up his sleeve!
Dawn Milward
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